November is Epilepsy Awareness Month. I've written before about how I think more awareness should be raised for this disease so I'm really happy that this month is dedicated to Epilepsy.
James was fifteen months old when he first started having episodes that we thought were seizures but he wasn't diagnosed until he was four. Now, that was a very long time to be unsure as to what was happening and not to have a proper medical diagnosis. However, it also meant that when he was diagnosed it didn't come as such of a shock. I was expecting it and had pretty much already accepted it. I still went through the feelings that I think all Mum's go through when their children are diagnosed with a medical condition. "Was it my fault?" "Did I do something wrong when I was pregnant?" "Could I have stopped it?"
It took me a long time to accept that, no, it wasn't my fault. I didn't do something awful when I was pregnant that could have prevented it. It wasn't because he was only breastfed for a month. I couldn't have changed it.
It's awful and it's not fair on James. It's not fair on anyone that suffers from this disease. The best thing that I can do now for him is to make sure that it doesn't affect his life anymore than necessary. He is just a normal six year old boy that loves to make lots of noise, leaves his lego all over the floor and ends up getting more water on the floor than in the bath tub at bath time.
To any parent going through this.. Remember it's not your fault. You are not to blame and chances are you couldn't have changed it. Epilepsy is a scary diagnosis for a child but with you behind them it doesn't have to be the end of the world.