Day Three - "When I Grow Up I Want To Be..."

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Day Three - "When I grow up I want to be"....

About two weeks ago I was walking to the shops pushing Emilie in her pram and James was hopping along beside me. I had a sudden moment of.. "Wow.. I have two kids!" Okay, that might sound really strange and now you all probably think that I'm some kind of crazy person! What I mean is that in my head I still think that I am 18 years old. I don't feel any different now that I am nearing the big 3-0.. I look at James and wonder where the time went. How did he get to be 5 and half years old and going into year one at school? Wasn't I just living it up in nightclubs and dancing the night away? 

I wonder if I will ever feel my age.. I wonder if I will ever feel like a grown up! (I promise that I do act like one.. I raise my children, I run a home, I pay my bills :)  )

So.. "When I grow up I want to be..." as happy as I am now.. I want to be here at home when James & Emilie are teenagers and walking home from school to find me in the kitchen making their dinner.. I want to be the one that they come to when they have boy/girlfriend problems. When I grow up I want to be there with Emilie on her wedding day as she gets dressed and at the hospital with James when he welcomes his first child. I want to be surrounded by Grandchildren on a Sunday afternoon as I prepare a family roast dinner, listening to their laughter coming from the living room. When I grow up I want to be surrounded by the people that I love and the friends that I cherish. I want to have phone conversations with old friends that last for hours. When I grow up I want to spend time travelling with Anthony like we did before welcoming our kids. I want us to have lazy Saturday mornings... When I grow up I want to be.... As happy as I am now.. 

“When I was 5 years old, my mother always told me that happiness was the key to life. When I went to school, they asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. I wrote down ‘happy’. They told me I didn’t understand the assignment, and I told them they didn’t understand life.” - John Lennon.


  1. I've never felt my age (sometimes I probably don't act it either). I see people I went to school with and thing "gosh they are/look/etc SO old (but in a nice way...ha)...and then I remember that I am their age. Yikes. LOL

  2. What a beautiful, beautiful, post. You've made me cry. This is totally wonderful. Sometimes I stop, aswell, and despite everything that has happened to us, I think, 'I'm so happy. I just always want to be this happy'. Thank you for your post, so so wonderful xxx

  3. Your answers sound so much like mine!! It's funny how as mommas, we start thinking of grandchildren already. Such a beautiful post--I can't wait to have two kids. It must be surreal!

  4. I still feel like I'm 18. When people ask me how old I am, that's what I tell them. Haha! But having my daughter has made my perspective in life different. Just like you, I just want to be home with her. That's where I'm the happiest. Great post!


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