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I've Been Keeping A Secret.

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I've been keeping a secret. 


This parenting three children gig is hard. 

Over the past few weeks I've had several comments said to me, ranging from, 'How do you always look awake, with so little sleep.." to "You make it look so easy."

First things first. The whole looking so awake part is purely down to a lot of expensive makeup and a stupid amount of concealer under the eyes.

Two children, I had a handle on. They were both sleeping through the night. Out of nappies and feeding themselves. Apart from the daily teeth brushing battles I was doing ok. 

Now though, I have a constant case of Mum guilt. My house never looks tidy. Henry's cot is full of clean washing, that I'm not sure will ever make it back to their drawers (but at least it's clean right?) I try and get up half an hour before the kids in the morning to get a head start. (Most days they hear me.) I'm outnumbered and my children know it.  

The Mum guilt though, it's real and it's harsh. 

I feel bad for James. He's the eldest so I feel like he gets the rough end of the deal. He's at the age where he can help me but then I feel guilty. He's becoming more independent so it's easy to forget that he still needs me just as much as the other two do. 
I feel bad for Emilie. She went from being the baby of the family to all of a sudden I'm asking her to try and get herself dressed, expecting her to try and keep the noise down whilst the baby sleeps and not to empty the dog shampoo down the toilet. (She totally did this last week..) 
I feel bad for Henry. James had me to himself for 4 and a half years before Emilie came along. Then Emilie was only 6 weeks old when James started school so she had me to herself all day every day. Henry thought, he might have a lot of my attention all day but he never has my undivided attention. 

Off course the good outweighs the bad. I am never short on cuddles or sticky kisses. Just making a chocolate spread sandwich earns me a 'You're the best' title. I literally have the best job in the world, but today I'm being honest and telling you that it's hard. I've never been this tired or disorganised. I've never been so anxious about my parenting decisions. I've never second guessed myself so much. 

So if you see my and I look as fresh as a daisy and I look like I've got a handle on everything.. Know that I haven't. I just had time to put my make up on that morning ;) 


You Are Amazing - Happy Mothers Day.

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Happy Mothers Day!

I've been wanting to post all week but it's been so busy with babies, school runs, and day to day life that I had to put it on the back burner. Then today I sat down to write a Currently post but at the last minute changed my mind to write this one instead. I want to write about the awesome mothers that I know. Mothers who day in and day out work hard and love their children even harder. The Mum's that push push push all day and then lie awake at night going over in their head what they didn't manage to accomplish, what is still on their to-do list. Mum's that rock their screaming baby until the early hours and then get two hours sleep, just to do it all again.

There is so much pressure on Mum's today. We feel pressure to look perfect & have gleaming houses. We feel like our three year olds need to know their alphabet and be able to spell their names for fear of being judged. We rock babies and then feel bad because we're told that we should lie them down awake. We bake cookies for the school fete. We wipe tears. We attend school assemblies, sports days, parents meeting and after school clubs. We make dinners, do the washing, sweep the floor from the last meal before the next one. We wake up in the middle of the night to sooth the toddler who's had a bad dream. We fold laundry and then tip toe into the bedrooms of sleeping children to put it all away. We schedule play dates & birthday parties. We give cuddles and make boo boos all better. We smile when sometimes we feel like crying. We wake up and often wish we could have an extra hour in bed.

When James was 6 months old I phoned my Mum one day and simply said 'thank you.' She had no idea what I was talking about. I told her that I never realised how much hard work parenting was until I had James. I didn't realise all the sacrifices she had made. All the tears she had shed until I was a Mum myself. The fact that she done it all mostly on her own just made me even more in awe of her. 

I'm going to say one thing. If you have never read my blog before or you never read it again, just know this one thing. You are all doing an amazing job. Whether you formula feed or breast feed. Whether you rock your baby to sleep or lie him down wide awake and he soothes himself. Whether you make every meal from scratch or the local take away knows you on a first name basis. Whether you throw perfect Pinterest birthday parties or you are the Queen of last minute-throw-it-together-party-bags.. (raises my own hand!)

When you lie there at night and worry whether you done a good job that day. When you worry whether you could have handled that toddler tantrum differently. (My 3 year old told me I was the worst Mum in the world whilst I was writing this because I wouldn't allow her a chocolate cake) Know that you are the perfect mother for your children. They do not remember the time outs or the time you gave them chicken nuggets rather a meal from scratch. 

To them you are perfect. 

You are their world.

Thankful Friday - Week Two.

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Is it just me or has this week just flown past? Not that I'm complaining! I am very happy to see Friday again. It's been a super busy week with a poorly baby, school runs & everything in between and we have a super busy weekend coming up but I think a chilled out Friday evening is definitely called for. There wasn't much sleep for Henry and I last night so I'm one tired Mama today. 

I'm excited to write another Thankful Friday post today.  

1// Sunday I received a text from my sister asking if I was up for a shopping trip... Hell yes! We loaded the kids into the car and off we went. I don't go shopping very often but I desperately needed some new clothes. I actually didn't find much that I liked but spending the day with my sister and wandering around the shops was such a lovely way to spend the day. 

2// Tuesday & Wednesday were such beautiful days! The sun was out both days and it actually felt like Spring. The kids got to play in the garden and I got to make use of my outside table and chairs for the first time this year. I love it when we can utilise outdoors. It's like adding an extra room onto your house :) 

3// Today my niece turns 4. My sister and I were pregnant together.. (Emilie and Henry are both 4 months younger than her two but that's a story for another day!) Anyway, the fact Eva is four already is crazy. She is turning into a beautiful little lady! 

4// Henry being poorly isn't one of the best moments of this week but the silver lining to that grey cloud is the extra cuddles. He's already a cuddly baby but he's definitely wanted more of them the past few days and I'm more than happy to oblige. The sleepless nights on the other hand.... 

5// Cooking a meal last night that everyone liked. That accomplishment is normally unheard of in this house. At least one person will complain that they don't like something that's in a meal. James is the pickiest eater I have ever come across thanks to his Sensory Processing Disorder but even he loved it. I may now have to cook it every week ha! 

What are the best moments from your week?     


Henry - Five Months.

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Henry. Today you turn five months old and I have no idea how that has happened. Being my third baby, I know that time flies but with you it seems to be going even quicker. In just one month you will have been with us for half a year, a fact that I can't get my head around just yet. 

It's been quite a month for you. At the beginning of the month your reflux was out of control. You were being sick during feeds, after them and right up until the next feed. You were in obvious pain so off to the doctors we went. Thankfully your weight wasn't affected by the constant vomiting. You are such a chunky little monkey and had already doubled your birth weight. I couldn't bear to see you in so many pain though so we went to see a paediatrician who agreed with me that not only are we dealing with reflux but just like your big brother you also have a dairy allergy. I've since cut dairy out of my diet and you are like a different baby! You are still sick (A LOT!) but you are so much happier in yourself. Everyone comments on your smile and if you are in a grumpy mood then all I need to do is stand you up and you literally beam from ear to ear. You love being on your legs! 

You are still eating every two hours during the day but for the past two weeks you have been sleeping a lot better at night. You go to bed between 7-7.30pm and then normally wake for a feed between 10-11pm and then every 3ish hours after that. It's a lot easier now that we've mastered breastfeeding lying down! Your naps during the day are very hit and miss and you seem to need more sleep than the 'average' baby but Emilie was exactly the same. You won't nap anywhere but on me unless you are in the pushchair but I kind of like the extra snuggles. It's not very often you can stay awake for more than two hours before you go off to dream land again. 

You are so so so close to rolling over. You get three quarters of the way there but then get so frustrated that you give in. This month you have mastered holding your toys, they go straight into your mouth! You've found your feet and hold onto them like it's your full time job. Also you are a pro at taking your dummy out and most times you can get it back in again too :) You love baths and last weekend I took you swimming for the first time. I'm pretty sure that you are part fish because you spent 45 minutes in the pool and didn't cry once. You were taking it all in. You love music and we've had many a dance party in the kitchen. James & Emilie are now old enough to cringe at my singing but thankfully you're young enough to think it's the best thing ever. Don't worry, I'm sure you'll soon cotton on... 

Things you dislike - Not being the centre of attention! I can see that you are going to be such a people person. If I try to set you down so I can cook and you're not ready for it then you let the whole house know. The first ten minutes after you wake up from a nap are definitely not your favourite times of the day. However you wake up in the morning with the biggest smile on your face. You don't like being still. If you're on the move or being jiggled then you're happy. I think that teething has well and truly hit. You chomp away on anything that you can get near your mouth, including your own fists and you're dribbling away. I can see where the first two bottom teeth will eventually come through but who knows how long they will take. I'm hoping they go easy on you! 

Overall it's been a great month with you little man. I can't wait to see what the next month brings! 

Happy five months Henry Penry! 

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